Poem In Memory Of My Daughter Kaylee

This Is A Poem I Wrote Today In My Daughter Kaylee Michelle's Memory
Almost 8 Years Ago She Past Away Suddenly From SIDS At Just 3 Weeks Old And Friday Is Her 8th Birthday And I Miss Her So Much And Am Still Grieving Over Losing Her! 

MISSING YOU LIKE CRAZY!

You Past So Soon I Didn't Even Get To Say Goodbye 

I Just Set On My Bed Crying Asking God Why Of Why You Need Her More Then I

The Doctors Said You Were Healthy But That Was A Lie

On The Day You Left You Took A Big Part Of My Heart With You To The Sky 

Without You Here On Earth I Thought I Would Die 

But Instead When I Think Of You Tears Fall From My Eye 

My Baby Is Gone, My World Fell Apart And Heartbroken Am I

Original Poem From Amy Rae Hanson © December - 02 - 2014

My Friday Night

So I Really Did Enjoy Myself At The Concert But Didn't Go Sing Karaoke Afterwards Because My Jeep Was Acting Up, Instead I Drove It Home And Walk To My Friends Who Has 10 Children, 7 Girls And 3 Boys, I Had A Great Time Visiting Him And Meeting His Girlfriend, What Was The Most Enjoyable Though Was When I Got To Hold There Adorable Baby Girl Layla , It Brought Tears To My Eyes Because It Brought Back Memories Of My Baby Girl Kaylee Who Past In 2006 at 3 Weeks Old At The Same Time It Was Very Healing Also, I Really Love Babies They Are So Precious, I Wish There Was A Way I Could Have Another Baby Of My Own, But Right Now The Odds Are Limited, Gonna Help Them Move There Belongings In Tomorrow And Celebrate My Nieces 16 Year Old Birthday!!!!

It's Friday Night Already And I'm Getting Out Of The House

So It's Already Friday Night And Time For Some Fun, Gonna Go Check Out The Marysville Farmers Market And Music In The Park. this Week It's J.T & Full Throttle. I Heard They Are A Very Good Country Rock Band I'm Excited To See What They Have To Bring To The Stage!!!! Gonna Dance My Butt Off And Boogie Lol, If I Have Time After I Will Go Do Some Singing Myself At The Sports Bar!!!! Take Care Y'all :)
Have A Great Weekend

A Night Out Shooting Pool With The Girls

Had A Great Night Out With The Girls Last Night At Blue Cube In Yuba City(Formally Snooker's Billiards) Listening To The Jukebox, Singing, Dancing And Playing Pool Socializing And Just Getting Out, Felt So Good To Get Out Of The House!!! :)

Discovering My True Calling!!!

My Mind Is Relaxed And Clear Of Any Negativity And Only Positivity Exist In Its Place, No Worry, No Stress, No Tension, Period I'm Just Living Day By Day, Hour By Hour, Minute By Minute!!!!, feeling free And Trusting The Lord To Direct Me In The Path Of Righteousness, It Feels Great Having Faith In God And Allowing Him To Carry My Burdens For Me, Thank You Jesus For Looking Out For Me I Trust You Will Give Me What I Need And Not What I Want!!! It's Your Well Not Mine, I Am Your Soldier And I Will Serve You To My Full Potential!!!! Thank You God, Amen, For I Know You Called Me To The Cross To Be A Evangelist As Early As 6 Years Old And I Know Now What Is Required Of Me By You. I Know I Wanted To Always Be One Of Your Teachers Of The Truth Growing Up, I Love You God, You Woke Me Up And Made Me New!!!! And Therefore I Thank You For That!!! , I May Seem Misunderstood By Others But I Am Your Child And Therefore I Was Created In Your Image And Perfection And Not There's!!!

My Hectic But Blessed Day!!!! :)

So All In All I Had A Good Day, Was Suppose To Meet My Friends At The River But Couldn't Find Them, Got Stuck Driving Around And Got Pushed Out Of The Sand Then When I Opened My Hood To Disconnect My Battery The T-Joint On The Heater Hose Exploded, So I Let It Sit For A While And Went Down The Hill To The Feather River,Brought Loki, Some Ice Cold Sweet Tea, Cold Water And Some Hotdogs, On The Way Down I Was Wearing Flip Flops And Didn't Realize The Sand Was Thick And Swallowed My Them Off My Feet, I Ended Up Burning My Feet Really Bad, When I Finally Almost Got To The Bottom This Nice Gentleman Helped Me By Throwing A Sheet Down Infront Of Me So And Led Me Down The Rest Of The Way, It Was Him His Wife And There 3 Boys Down There, They Let Me Cook My Hotdogs On There Grill And Gave My Dog Loki Some Water, I Sipped The Sweet Tea For A While And Ate The Hotdogs, Then Swam For 3 Hours, The Water Felt Really Good Expecially On My Scolded Feet, Loki Was Extremely Hot So I Took Him In The River To Cool Off,After Swimming I Packed Up And Starting Thinking About How I Was Gonna Get Back Up The Hill Without Burning My Feet So I Came Up With A Solution I Cut An Old Sheet In Half With My Keys And Tied Each Piece Around Each Foot And Grabbed Loki And Headed Up,When I Got To My Jeep I Connected The Battery And With What I Had In The Radiator I Started The Engine And Went As Far As I Could Trying To Get Closer To The Main Road, I Made It To The Access Road First Then Let It Cool Down, Started It Again A Few Times Then Attempted To Climb Up The Levee, I Got To The Other Side And It Died Again, After Cooling It Down A Bit I Started It Up Again Thinking I Was At The Broadway Gate But Quickly Found Out I Was On The Other side Of Naumes , So I Kept Going South On The Road Right of The Gate And Got As Far As The Country Club Gate Until She Was Burning Hot And Would Not Start, I Waitiled For Her To Cool Down And While I Was Waiting This Walnut Farmer Named Forest Opened The Gate On His Way Down To The River For A Dip, And Seen Me In Distress, I Started The Jeep Up And Followed Him To His House Where He Attempted To Fix It And Put Water In It, It Held For A Little Bit I Had Loki In My Car But He Got Out Without Me Knowing, And I Didn't Know Until I Was Almost At Elle Rd.And Had To Turn Around To Go Get Loki Which Was Still At The Farmers House On The Way As I Was Coming Up To Country Club Rd It Died Again So i Got Out And Put Water In It, Only Got A Little Farther Where I Met This East Indian Farmer Named Amar Who Took Me Back The Rest Of The Way Down The Street To Get Loki, I Grabbed Him And Went Back Towards My Jeep Where, I Met Up With Another Farmer Named Rob Who I Asked For Directions Earlier,He Found A Piece That Would Work Temporarily To Get Me Home And Put Water In My Coolant Bottle, I Made It Home Where I Put More Water In It And Let It Cool Off Then Went To The Store For My Uncle To Get Him Some Soda And A Big Bag Of Ice And Told Me To Get The Part I Needed, I Went To 3 Locations Before I Settled With Auto zone In Marysville Where I Bought It And They Installed It And Put More Water In At No Charge, And Met A New Mechanic Named RJ, IStarted It Up And Headed Towards Foodmax Where I Got The Ice And Soda Finally Then Headed Home, Thank God For Farmers!!!!

I Woke Up The Minions In My Head, Help!!!!

So Lately I Have Been Researching My Childhood And I Rediscovered The Place I Grew Up In Whitmore,CA But When I Did I Have Unlocked Memories I Haven't Had For Over 22 Years I Have Got My Memories Back Will Most Anyway, But I Unfortunately Unlocked The Bad With The Good And Now I Am Having Bad Nightmares And Flashbacks From The Trauma I Endured In My Younger Days, I Am Happy I Got My Good Memories Back But I Really Didn't Wanna Remember In Detail The Events That Horrifically Changed My Life, Now What Can I Do About These Horrible Bad Memories, Lately I Have Felt Mentally Lost And Abandoned Like A Child Locked In A Room With No Way Out Left There With No Hope!!!!!!